Wasting away, trying to make something of myself
I’ve spent what feels like countless hours trying to learn, and it feels as if it’s all been for naught. I’m plagued by inadequacy, and I’m getting nowhere fast. I don’t know what to do, and mentally, I wish I was a bit stronger. It would really help in times like this.
Recapping my "Black Friday/Saturday" acquisitions
Amoeba Records - Vinyl: $150 Best Buy - Keyboard: $50 Joe’s Jeans - Two pairs of jeans: $140 - Button-up shirt: $60 Porsche Design - T-shirt: $60 Theory - Dress shirt: $45 - V-neck: $30 Nike - Shoes: $40 - Socks: $20 Ugg - Shoes: $80 Total: $675 More or less a successful shopping trip. >.>
Record Store Day Black Friday
This is the first time I’ve partaken in this event, and I have to say, it was quite exciting, considering I was at Amoeba Records in Hollywood, the largest location of the three. Really wish I could’ve stayed longer, since they had an AMAZING selection. Nonetheless, my haul: Leonard Cohen / Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah (7” single) Incubus - S.C.I.E.N.C.E. Incubus - Make Yourself ...
Somehow, not as exciting as I remembered. Maybe I’m just enjoying college way too much and missing people I normally spend each day with.
Home, sleep, dying.
2nd day of interviews done
Stress gone, but bittersweet.
I haven't been on the other side for a very long...
I’ve learned several things. My interviewing skills really aren’t that bad. It’s on par with everyone else, but I suppose my speech impediment does hold me back. I really do grill people. People have weaknesses, but you really learn to see people not from what they lack, but how they approach it for the future. Anyone can be great, but it’s mindset that’s...
Saying no is one of the hardest things to do
You want to say yes, but you know you can’t. It’s for the better good to say no, and even if it hurts, you have to. I just hope I don’t regret it and there are no hard feelings over it.
A grand waste of a time
But it was necessary and had reasons.
Have become synonymous with YOLO for me at this point…
I need to stop taking “night naps.” After dinner, I seem to always take a nap until 11. While they may be enjoyable, they aren’t constructive at all, considering I normally only ever have about an hour of work on any given day. I should be just finishing it and getting proper sleep. Sigh.
It's not about sticking within boundaries
Never in a million years would I have ever thought I would have a social position. But I do. I’ll make it work.
Miles upon miles of work
A long week I’m really not enjoying.
Even though it’s really time to get serious, I just can’t. I just got back from Interact Stayover, and while it was fun and successful, it really was stressful. I can say I’m satisfied with how it turned out though. Today was meant to be a day of work. That didn’t work out. Haas app, still untouched, with only a bit more of the month left. But I’ll be fine. Watched...
For a day of YOLO, this really did work out and was worth it.
I think I’m really going to be okay with this.
Everything happens for a reason
I suppose I have to usher things into a new future.
Haven't been this happy in so long
I think I can say I’m an ambitious individual. I find myself striving for things beyond what people expect me to do, and usually, I don’t do ideally. It’s really a hard battle fighting against the majority thought, and right now, I really do feel beaten down. I think that’s how it always is with a struggle of power. You can’t help it.
Problems of Being a Republican
You’re not allowed to voice your opinions. Since the majority of people are Democrats, in particular, in America, the minute you say something contrary to the majority opinion, you’re immediately shot down. Even if you’re right, you’re wrong by default. It’s cool to hate on Republicans. You’re automatically assumed to be a rich, white person. Not necessarily...
One loss tonight
But I am looking forward to that other win. Sales and income taxes, please stay the same.
One of the most stressful nights I've had
YOLO after YOLO, but I think it’s about time to buckle down and get serious about studying. People who made this weekend worth it: AT: For convincing me to go instead of going to do community service. That sounds bad, but I needed to show dedication to everything I’m doing, and I did need a breather from all I’ve been doing. AC: For giving me so much support in everything. I...
Productive study and recovery
Marks this day.
Marks this day.
Naps are nice
Especially three hour naps after dinner. >.> Productivity level: zero. Yay me.
Spending Halloween night
With vinyl. Admittedly, not a very bad way to spend it, but WYWH.
My body is effing destroyed
Great America Halloween Haunt
I’ve never been one to write long posts, so I’ll just highlight my day. People driving over speed bumps while I’m in the back dying. No one told me that there would be random people trying to scare me at Halloween Haunt. Why do I go inside haunted houses only to cling onto people tightly and scream at scary things that try to touch me. I don’t like being touched. ...
Still too lazy to make a real post
Doing a lot of things in one day is nice, since the sleep the next day is amazing. Great that I was able to avert cross dressing for the fashion show, but I’m not sure about Halloween…
Not in the mood to talk about life
To write more about life eventually.
The second fail
One down, one to go
I failed one; I can’t fail the next can I…? :/
Once hell week is over
Things will be right again. Strangely though, as stressed as I am, I don’t think I’ve been happier in a while. :)
Today is not my day
Rain. Destroyed Textbooks. Wet socks.
I honestly don't like it when things I like get...
There’s really a sense of joy in finding the undiscovered: it’s like discovering a nice girl that no one appreciates and you have all to yourself. Then after you spend so much time nurturing her and appreciating her, the rest of the world starts to lust after her and she isn’t just yours anymore. That’s how I feel about Justin Bieber’s latest single “Beauty and...
Changes in schedule
Dropping UGBA 103 - Introduction to Finance And instead taking EA LANG 105 - Dynamics of Romantic Core Values in East Asian Premodern Literature and Contemporary Film So basically, EA LANG courses don’t come by very often, and to be able to take two by the same professor is really rare, and I don’t think I’ll have this opportunity. Finance had a bad professor anyway, so my...
Going as an outsider is surreal. When you’re not a participant, it’s a pretty amazing thing. To be able to gather 2700 high school students in one place, it’s not an easy thing to do. The amount that has to be planned and taken care of: to be honest, it’s a larger scale than some college events, and it’s an amazing job especially by such young people. Once you get...
Another Republican Post
I’m a firm believer of the proverb, “Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.” I think we’re all pretty firm believers of this. People should work hard instead of relying on others, and it’s a lot more satisfying. This is relevant to welfare, social security, Medicare, and all of those ridiculous handouts. Oh,...
I've kind of learned that if I had to think...
I’m better off not saying it. #peoplegettingoffendedsoeasily #whydoionlyevergetcalledout #doublestandards
Even though the semester system’s way longer than the quarter system, it still feels quite fast. It’s already that time to be drafting schedules for the next semester, ahaha. All I’m talking about is extremely tentative and highly subject to change. CS 61A - The Structure and Interpretation of Computer Programs - The first of the core series for the Computer Science major....