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Wasting away, trying to make something of myself

Sun, 25 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

I’ve spent what feels like countless hours trying to learn, and it feels as if it’s all been for naught. I’m plagued by inadequacy, and I’m getting nowhere fast. I don’t know what to do, and mentally, I wish I was a bit stronger. It would really help in times like this.

Recapping my "Black Friday/Saturday" acquisitions

Sat, 24 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

Amoeba Records
- Vinyl: $150
Best Buy
- Keyboard: $50
Joe’s Jeans
- Two pairs of jeans: $140
- Button-up shirt: $60
Porsche Design
- T-shirt: $60
Theory
- Dress shirt: $45
- V-neck: $30
Nike
- Shoes: $40
- Socks: $20
Ugg
- Shoes: $80

Total: $675

More or less a successful shopping trip. >.>

Record Store Day Black Friday

Fri, 23 Nov 2012 20:36:42 -0800

This is the first time I’ve partaken in this event, and I have to say, it was quite exciting, considering I was at Amoeba Records in Hollywood, the largest location of the three. Really wish I could’ve stayed longer, since they had an AMAZING selection. Nonetheless, my haul:

Leonard Cohen / Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah (7” single)
Incubus - S.C.I.E.N.C.E.
Incubus - Make Yourself
Incubus - Morning View
Skrillex - Scary Monsters and Nice Sprites
Skrillex - Bangarang
The Velvet Underground - The Velvet Underground & Nico: Scepter Studios Sessions

All unmarked are 12” LPs. I’m honestly really excited for the Velvet Underground one, since while it’s an album I already own (the banana one), it’d be really interesting to hear an earlier version and how the production is on it. The Hallelujah single is more novelty than anything, since I already have the song on Jeff Buckley’s album, but it’s nice to have both versions in one convenient place. Incubus, I just had to get since it’s the first time a lot of it is being pressed on vinyl, same with Skrillex.

Wednesday

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

Home, sleep, dying.

Thanksgiving

Wed, 21 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

Somehow, not as exciting as I remembered. Maybe I’m just enjoying college way too much and missing people I normally spend each day with.

2nd day of interviews done

Tue, 20 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

Stress gone, but bittersweet.

I haven't been on the other side for a very long time

Mon, 19 Nov 2012 23:07:11 -0800

I’ve learned several things.

My interviewing skills really aren’t that bad. It’s on par with everyone else, but I suppose my speech impediment does hold me back.
I really do grill people.
People have weaknesses, but you really learn to see people not from what they lack, but how they approach it for the future.
Anyone can be great, but it’s mindset that’s important.
Unlikely leaders make the best of candidates.

Saying no is one of the hardest things to do

Sun, 18 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

You want to say yes, but you know you can’t. It’s for the better good to say no, and even if it hurts, you have to. I just hope I don’t regret it and there are no hard feelings over it.

A grand waste of a time

Sat, 17 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

But it was necessary and had reasons.

Friday nights

Fri, 16 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

Have become synonymous with YOLO for me at this point…

Naps

Thu, 15 Nov 2012 22:59:01 -0800

I need to stop taking “night naps.” After dinner, I seem to always take a nap until 11. While they may be enjoyable, they aren’t constructive at all, considering I normally only ever have about an hour of work on any given day. I should be just finishing it and getting proper sleep. Sigh.

It's not about sticking within boundaries

Wed, 14 Nov 2012 00:14:18 -0800

Never in a million years would I have ever thought I would have a social position. But I do. I’ll make it work.

Miles upon miles of work

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

A long week I’m really not enjoying.

Lazy Mondays

Mon, 12 Nov 2012 23:07:29 -0800

Even though it’s really time to get serious, I just can’t. I just got back from Interact Stayover, and while it was fun and successful, it really was stressful. I can say I’m satisfied with how it turned out though. Today was meant to be a day of work.

That didn’t work out.

Haas app, still untouched, with only a bit more of the month left.

But I’ll be fine. Watched Wreck-It Ralph with some of my favorite people, socialized in MS’s apartment; it’s been the most part a great night.

I’ll pick up my game soon.

YOLO

Sun, 11 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

For a day of YOLO, this really did work out and was worth it.

Positive prospects

Sat, 10 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

I think I’m really going to be okay with this.

Everything happens for a reason

Fri, 09 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

I suppose I have to usher things into a new future.

Lost my baking virginity.

Fri, 09 Nov 2012 01:33:38 -0800

Lost my baking virginity.

Haven't been this happy in so long

Thu, 08 Nov 2012 23:59:00 -0800

:)))

Ambition

Wed, 07 Nov 2012 23:26:48 -0800

I think I can say I’m an ambitious individual. I find myself striving for things beyond what people expect me to do, and usually, I don’t do ideally. It’s really a hard battle fighting against the majority thought, and right now, I really do feel beaten down. I think that’s how it always is with a struggle of power. You can’t help it.